I am 39+1 today so 6 days until my due date. I know 'due dates' mean nothing really, babies arrive when they want to arrive, however I like knowing that we're pretty much ALMOST there and at the very most, only have 18 days before we meet our little girl. I'm still hoping she will come this week though, you never know! Here are some photos of my 39 week bump (thank you Michael), I have no idea how a 6-8lb baby fits in there, I feel rather small! Her movements feel huge though, her favourite thing to do at the moment is kick me in the ribs! Ouch.
So yesterday I had an appointment with a midwife, which isn't generally routine at 39 weeks but my consultant sensed my anxiety at my 38 week appointment and thought it would be beneficial for me to go over my birth plan and any worries I have. I wrote a birth plan way back when I was about 30 weeks and haven't looked at it since but being a writer, I do like to have things in my head written down on paper, so I am sure it will come in useful. Anyway I had the usual checks and all is well with baby (although she hasn't engaged anymore in the past 3 weeks, she clearly loves being wedged up in my ribs) however that day had been a quiet day for movements so I was put on a monitor for about 45 minutes to check all was well. The midwife was happy with the trace however because this has happened quite a fair few times, she feels that if it happens again anytime soon, they will probably induce me early. I don't particularly want to be induced but lackage of movements at this stage in pregnancy have to be taken very seriously. She has moved a little more today though-our little girlie is rather stubborn. She moves when she wants to, no form of coaxing (cold water, lying on my side etc) will get her to wiggle if she doesn't want to! It is always better to be safe though, so if they want to induce me, that is what will have to happen.
Whilst I was on the monitor, we went through my birth plan and my questions (I wrote a list!) and the midwife was sooo lovely. She actually made giving birth sound like a pleasant experience! I'm not kidding myself, I know it will be painful but I feel like I have eased myself of this fear that I 'won't be able to do it'. Of course I will! She suggested a water birth which is something I haven't considered but more willing to try now. I think you have to be prepared for all eventualities so whilst I cannot 'plan' labour, I have ideas from the midwife now on how to make more relaxing.
I feel I can do nothing more now than wait. Everything is ready for her arrival. Every day feels like a week. I keep getting a cramp or backache and hoping this is it! And then it fizzles into nothing. I actually feel pretty good right now, I never thought I would actually WANT pain! I can't sleep anymore because I keep imagining the moment I see her for the first time, how am I going to feel? Who is she going to look like? I already feel so in love with this baby, knowing she is just right there and fully developed but I can't hold her is becoming difficult. I am impatient I know but can you blame me....
xoxo
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