Something amazing has happened. Something life-changing and I can't believe I am writing it. Last week, we found out I am pregnant. ME, PREGNANT! When we found out, I literally cried tears of joy. My mind filled with wonderful images of us all as a family, something we have wanted for so long. This certainly was planned and me and Michael (and mum) couldn't hide how happy we felt.
As soon as the shock wore off, I felt an overwhealming feeling of happiness as well as fear. I know how early days this is and I know things can go wrong-I am not naive. That doesn't mean that right at this moment, I am not completely elated. I have done a million tests as well as a digital one to confirm and yes...they all say the same thing, it's true, I am pregnant and due at the end of September! Just before my 27th birthday-how perfect!
Now of course my first initial feeling was to shout it from the rooftops but I know that is not a good idea. I have of course told my mum and a few other people but that is it. I am too scared to tell anyone else in case the dream comes to an end. I must remain positive though as why not, I feel I am allowed to be excited...I am growing a little baby in my tummy after all!
To become a mother and father is something me and Michael have wanted for some time. For me personally I have always had that maternal extinct and I started working with children in the first place because I just adore them and I love watching them grow and change every single day. I love all the little things like when they get super excited because they have found a worm in the mud. Or when they giggle and laugh at the smallest, silliest things. I have always wanted to experience those special moments with my own child and I guess...it looks like I will be!
I just want these 3 months to hurry up so that the most dangerous period is over and I can tell people (I am so impatient) and I can just enjoy being pregnant and look forward to our little one's arrival. Tomorrow I will be 4 weeks pregnant in 'pregnancy terms' so yes it is very early days and I certainly don't feel pregnant. Currently my symptoms are:
Tired
Bloating
Going off food
That is about it! At this moment in time I am writing this blog to myself as of course, I don't want anyone to know right now. However when the time is right I shall make this blog public and I can share with you all my journey...it is going to be an amazing one, I can feel it. xxx
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